I want you to know that you have left disturbing memories in me when you left. Memories that distract me from what I have originally planned. That is to stay at a safe distance. In my comfort bubble. But your memories continue to haunt me and make me feel things I wish to forget. Because it always leaves that “almost” feeling I can never describe.
And this is why you are disturbing.
Creating ripples in my rhythmical but unsteady heart. And soon began to form tidal waves I cannot control anymore.
It’s like you have created an alarm that goes off whenever I am at the verge of accepting we will never be more. You seem to resurface from your hibernation and make me remember.
Everything.
And here I am convinced that you brought the calm in my storm. But you left at the aftershock. The stillness brought emptiness. More chaos. More confusion. More storm.
I think I have read almost a hundred thoughts about “almosts”. How it puts you to the edge but never over it. Never crossing the line. Never taking the fall.
Almosts, I realized, has never started but can leave unwanted treasures that will not fade away.
“And the two of us ‘almost’ had it all. If only the Universe were more favorably inclined towards us, alas!”
I could feel every word there..
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Thank you so much!! It means so much to me. 🙂
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